Editor鈥檚 Note: is a contributor series from The Marjorie featuring first-person accounts of the environmental changes Floridians are witnessing across the state. This essay was funded by the Schooner Foundation.
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On February 27, 2025, I received the same email as at least 880 employees at the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration. The email arrived just before 4 p.m. from Vice Admiral Nancy Hann, NOAA鈥檚 Acting Administrator, informing me that I would be fired effective at 5 p.m. that day.
The last email I鈥檇 received from Vice Admiral Hann was just a few weeks prior, when she had congratulated me on being awarded the 鈥�2024 Team Member of the Year鈥� for the Southeast Fisheries Science Center.
I was fired along with every other 鈥� employee鈥� I knew. To explain the term, all new federal hires serve a probationary period during which they lack most civil service protections. I was fulfilling my one-year probation because I鈥檇 been promoted.
I didn鈥檛 just lose a job, I lost core pieces of my identity, my community, and a sense of purpose.
It took over 15 years of work to earn it, including a Ph.D., postdoctoral research, and then years working at NOAA. I鈥檇 poured my life into my work. I didn鈥檛 just lose a job, I lost core pieces of my identity, my community, and a sense of purpose.
Before I studied fish and fisheries with equations and computer models, I hunted them with a speargun.
After college, I moved to Key West, worked on boats, and learned to spearfish. Later, I apprenticed under Captain Steve Park, who became like a second father, on the Native Diver II in Jacksonville. I could be trusted not to kill myself diving solo, and I鈥檇 gut fish and swap tanks and scrub the deck without needing to be asked, so I鈥檇 be invited on commercial trips. It gave me the opportunity to spend a lot of time underwater.
Fish have personalities. Red snapper are too curious for their own good. If you pick up sand from the bottom and throw it over you, they鈥檒l come down from the water column to investigate. Hogfish are just dumb. If you miss one, which you鈥檇 never admit, it might stick around and let you try again. Gag grouper are smart. If you don鈥檛 have a speargun, they鈥檒l follow you to see what you stir up. When you have a gun, you can鈥檛 be too eager. Pretend you鈥檙e doing something else until you鈥檙e ready to line up your shot.
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My relationship with the ocean is deep and complex. I love studying it, the creatures that live in it, and the people who depend on it. It鈥檚 an awe-inspiring bioenergetic system and a wilderness I hope to preserve for future generations. It鈥檚 also a resource that we rely on for food and livelihood. These worldviews share the same long-term goal: a healthy ecosystem.
Fish have personalities. Red snapper are too curious for their own good. If you pick up sand from the bottom and throw it over you, they鈥檒l come down from the water column to investigate. Hogfish are just dumb. If you miss one, which you鈥檇 never admit, it might stick around and let you try again. Gag grouper are smart. If you don鈥檛 have a speargun, they鈥檒l follow you to see what you stir up. When you have a gun, you can鈥檛 be too eager. Pretend you鈥檙e doing something else until you鈥檙e ready to line up your shot.
My relationship with the ocean is deep and complex. I love studying it, the creatures that live in it, and the people who depend on it. It鈥檚 an awe-inspiring bioenergetic system and a wilderness I hope to preserve for future generations. It鈥檚 also a resource that we rely on for food and livelihood. These worldviews share the same long-term goal: a healthy ecosystem.
For fisheries, it鈥檚 not all doom and gloom. Although the success stories in fisheries may not be as , many large stocks are sustainably managed with .
In the United States, eating American-caught seafood means consuming sustainably caught seafood. By law, the Magnuson-Stevens Fishery Conservation and Management Act requires that U.S. fisheries stocks be healthy as evaluated by the best available science. Since implementing fishery management plans over the past three decades, the U.S. has rebuilt to the point where 94% of our fish stocks are not overfished.
The United States is . This has been built on decades of investment in science-based management, which relies on rigorous . These involve statistical and mathematical modeling that integrates survey data, catch records, and environmental information.
NOAA鈥檚 National Fisheries Service provides the science to support sustainable American fisheries, which are annually. Losing scientists specializing in quantitative modeling will lead to increased uncertainties in , , and . Less robust fisheries management will ultimately hurt American seafood production, which could increase reliance on foreign imports to meet our seafood demands.
I worked at the Southeast Fisheries Science Center to support the decision-making needs of the Fishery Management Councils in the South Atlantic, Gulf of Mexico, and the U.S. Caribbean.
My team鈥檚 research supported (EBM) for fisheries. This work enhances traditional fisheries management assessments, which use stock assessments to evaluate a single species.
, but it can also be improved. EBM recognizes that the fish population being assessed is part of a broader ecological community, where they act as both predators and prey, and are influenced by environmental changes to the ocean and its habitats.
Just as important, EBM integrates social and economic dynamics. For example, most of our southeastern fisheries have both commercial and recreational sectors, which can be optimized in different ways. The objective for the commercial fishery is to maximize profits, and the right management practices can help fishers increase revenues and lower costs. Meanwhile, recreational fishers may find higher value in having more opportunities to fish or having higher-quality fishing experiences, for example, catching larger fish rather than just more fish.
EBM also recognizes that fisheries are one of many ocean uses, alongside other recreational and industrial enterprises, such as tourism, offshore energy, and shipping. We supported holistic management to optimize a sustainable 鈥淏lue Economy.鈥�
Fishers and managers know firsthand that the physical, ecological, and socioeconomic environments in fisheries have changed, and will continue to do so. The Fishery Management Councils, seeking science to make the best-informed decisions for their stakeholders, have and continue to request EBM research.
The science to support EBM is now possible due to recent technological advances. Today, we can collect and synthesize enormous amounts of data and run large computational simulations.
Our research integrated forecasts from NOAA ocean models into fisheries assessments to inform policy decisions. We were working to test future management scenarios and evaluate trade-offs: tools to guide proactive management.
In fact, our work directly aligned with President Trump鈥檚 priorities for U.S. fisheries. The April 17 Executive Order for instructs that 鈥渢he Secretary of Commerce shall take all appropriate action to modernize data collection and analytical practices that will improve the responsiveness of fisheries management to real-time ocean conditions.鈥�
The science of developing physical and biogeochemical oceanographic forecasts is expressly linked to future atmospheric conditions. Our work interfaced with climate science, which may have made us a target.
For fisheries, the impacts of climate change are not necessarily all dire. Some areas and fisheries will be more impacted than others, and not all impacts will be negative. My ecosystem modeling simulations, for example, examined both the 鈥渨inners鈥� and 鈥渓osers鈥� under future ocean conditions. While some species and fisheries may require a more precautionary approach, others may benefit from changing conditions and be able to withstand heavier fishing pressure.
As a former NOAA scientist, it鈥檚 thus particularly upsetting to see the agency portrayed as a climate alarmist, as NOAA science finds itself amid a . Earlier this summer, the NOAA National Centers for Environmental Information stopped tracking the prevalence of billion-dollar weather disasters. All work on the next National Climate Report has now halted after . Although budgeting is still being worked out in Congress, a recent budget memorandum (known as a 鈥減assback鈥�) ends support for the Regional Climate Data and Information and dissolves .
Losing such research puts our fisheries, oceans, and weather services at risk. We were using this science to inform proactive fisheries management decisions.
For the National Weather Service, it means losing the data and research enterprises that underpin weather forecasting. Without this research, significant data gaps will develop and worsen, leading to less accurate and less weather forecasts. This is already the case in regions with , where inadequate forecasting capabilities exacerbate the impacts of extreme weather events.
The science of developing physical and biogeochemical oceanographic forecasts is expressly linked to future atmospheric conditions. Our work interfaced with climate science, which may have made us a target.
For fisheries, the impacts of climate change are not necessarily all dire. Some areas and fisheries will be more impacted than others, and not all impacts will be negative. My ecosystem modeling simulations, for example, examined both the 鈥渨inners鈥� and 鈥渓osers鈥� under future ocean conditions. While some species and fisheries may require a more precautionary approach, others may benefit from changing conditions and be able to withstand heavier fishing pressure.
As a former NOAA scientist, it鈥檚 thus particularly upsetting to see the agency portrayed as a climate alarmist, as NOAA science finds itself amid a . Earlier this summer, the NOAA National Centers for Environmental Information stopped tracking the prevalence of billion-dollar weather disasters. All work on the next National Climate Report has now halted after . Although budgeting is still being worked out in Congress, a recent budget memorandum (known as a 鈥減assback鈥�) ends support for the Regional Climate Data and Information and dissolves .
Losing such research puts our fisheries, oceans, and weather services at risk. We were using this science to inform proactive fisheries management decisions.
For the National Weather Service, it means losing the data and research enterprises that underpin weather forecasting. Without this research, significant data gaps will develop and worsen, leading to less accurate and less weather forecasts. This is already the case in regions with , where inadequate forecasting capabilities exacerbate the impacts of extreme weather events.
A fisheries science quip is that 鈥渋f the conservation groups and the fishing groups are all mad at you, you probably made the right decision.鈥� Now, I鈥檝e seen both groups from both sides, who are often very upset with us, aligned for the first time I鈥檝e ever seen in asking the federal government to stop these cuts to NOAA.
We all want the same thing: a healthy ecosystem. In other words, lots of fish, now and forever, and the science to make that possible.
For those fired, we are now suddenly rebuilding our careers and possibly changing our paths. For me, on some days, I鈥檒l feel that I鈥檝e lost the purpose I鈥檇 spent 15 or more years working towards. My ethos aligned with the mission of NOAA: science, service, and stewardship. I was proud to serve the American public and proud to conduct research that could improve people鈥檚 lives and livelihoods by stewarding our ocean environment.
The projects I led are ongoing, and I continue to work on them. I can鈥檛 let them go and am sometimes upset with myself for this. I should be focusing on the contract and consulting work that pays my bills. I should be sending out more job applications. But I often still find myself working on projects I no longer lead. It鈥檚 validating to know the science was valuable enough to survive and that the teams I built are resilient enough to continue. But it鈥檚 painful to watch it move on without me.
For society, the consequences may be long-lasting. Dismissing scientists across our government ultimately weakens America鈥檚 ability to make informed decisions in the face of pressing national and global challenges. It slows innovation and shrinks our foresight. And our ability to steward the ocean鈥攖o understand it, protect it, and benefit from it鈥攚ill be compromised. Some of these impacts may not be immediate or dramatic. They鈥檒l be slow and quiet. They鈥檒l compound. And they may last for generations.
Yet the ocean remains: vast and in need of understanding. Its life and systems are changing. And those of us fired, my friends and colleagues, we鈥檙e still scientists. Many are still trying to do research, still collaborating, still trying to protect marine ecosystems and the communities that depend on them. You can鈥檛 fire our purpose. Some of us will continue to study the ocean, how we can, for as long as we can.
This story was originally published by The Marjorie and shared in partnership with the Florida Climate Reporting Network, a multi-newsroom initiative founded by the Miami Herald, the Sun-Sentinel, The Palm Beach Post, the Orlando Sentinel, SA国际传谋 Public Media and the Tampa Bay Times.
